My new year’s action plan

So when my husband met me I was Alice in Wonderland.  I saw wonder in everything, I believed the best of everyone and I was happy.  In the past few years I have changed into a cynical, negative, weepy person.  It is one of the things I most regret in my life.

Another thing about me is that in 2013 I did not make time to draw or paint.  I like to think of myself as an artist, though I am not sure what that means.  Maybe I just like drawing and colours.

So for 2014 I have a plan of action to try and address both these things.

I plan to cultivate a attitude of gratitude by posting a gratitude calendar on this blog.  I want to draw a picture of something for which I am grateful every day.  Small things, big things, people, whatever.  The idea is to draw-draw-draw and draw some more.  And to start looking at my life in a positive way, because now it is all trees, hugs, strawberries and bubbles but I know it is going to get harder as the year goes on to find new things to be grateful for.

I’ll possibly post other stuff in between, but the plan is to have a new picture every day.

So here goes…

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My friend

This year I made a new friend.  (I do not make friends easily.  I am not sure why but it has always been that way.)  The day she asked me to be her friend, I came home and cried.  I was scared but we both took the chance and opened our hearts to each other.

I can not say that I never got mad at her (she did use my face towel to mop up yogurt from a bus’ floor).  And there is still a lot I do not know about her. But we were becoming friends.

Then on the first of December she died in a car accident.  I was in denial for some time.  I could not listen to all the stories being told about her at work.  I went to my class and sat there alone.  I would not allow myself to think about the idea of her being dead.  I kept myself from crying and I thought I was silly for being so, so sad about her… I’m not family… I did not know her that long.

But fact is I am sad about my friend and I will miss her for a long, long time.

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Saying goodbye to Christa and Tranitha.